Tuesday, July 6, 2010


I just got a piece of sage advice from a male friend today.  He said "F*ck it".  As soon as he said it I thought to myself, that's exactly what I need to do, this dude is a genius.  In this weird quest or whatever you call it that I am blogging about I have discovered 2 things:
  1. I get bored and tired of ridiculousness very quickly
  2. I don't know how to take a loss
Let's discuss.  I've been dealing pretty regularly with hot chocolate guy.  We chat a bunch go on some outings here or there.  But here's my thing about him...I have to start every communication.  He never reaches out to me first.  So if I don't say anything he's gone for days.  On top of that this dude works maybe 22 hours a day.  Who does that?  I'm apparently needy (learned that just now) and I don't deal well with being bored.  Confirmation to point 1, if you are a habitual ridiculousness crosser then don't join online dating sites claiming to want to meet someone.  You aren't for real.  You are playing games hot chocolate.  Now I can say that just fine right now to you.  Come tomorrow I am going to be a little sad inside because I want to know what happened?  Where did I go awry?  Should I reach out to hot chocolate?  Maybe he's busy?  Which brings me to point number 2.  I need to take the "L" and move on.  In essence I need to say 'F*CK IT".  No need to dwell time to move on. 

Move on time:  I joined match.  What a different experience this has been from my past time on match.  This time around I seem to get more people reaching out to me which is great for my Kanye West size Ego.  Needless to say, I am having more fun on this site than I expected.  It's a lot of emailing and no real dates yet but sheesh i am really juggling these fools.  I am still a smidge picky and I deny folks I'm not even remotely interested in.  But I have been accepting to the idea of perhaps dating a person from another race.  We shall see what happens. But now I state that no matter what may or may not happen, I will have the presence of mind to say "F*CK IT!"


  1. Love comes in all shapes, sizes, and colors. You should be open to other races. It can't hurt. Don't give up.

  2. Get yourself ready cuz you never know how he's gonna show up!